Introducing My Not So Exciting Life

I am only a year over a quarter century old and I feel that time is running out. Is it so impossible that I expected things to be so drastically different than what they really are. I have wasted so much time already. I should be studying instead of playing catch up with my bills. But I have such terrible habits when it comes to sticking things out. I know my flaws. I am seriously making an effort to change. I know my battle is not easy. I want so much to change things about myself. Not just my weight but my personality. I want to never let myself feel the things J made me feel. So, from now on, I will document my change. I will force myself to look at my deficiencies and see what I must change. I wont stick my head in the sand. I will stick out this retail job, this mediocre life, and this crappy diet until I fix myself. I'm not crazy, or suicidal, I just know that I am in need of a personality makeover. For that, I need to make money. To make money I must work. I have to find a new direction. This wanderlust in me will not go away. I must find a way to sooth it. But I will do so in a way that does not ruin my life further. So says I.